命中注定吗。。

唉。。你说“不管结果是什么。。你都要坚强面对。。就算事实事实是残酷的。。”唉。。等也等了一个月又八天。。难道我所做过的一切努力。。就只值那么一句吗。。我不知道为什么。。你说对我有好感。。我就很开心。。也就不自制地喜欢你。。结果就越来越喜欢。。变成了。。深深的。。爱了。。唉。。都是我的错吧。。我不该这样的。。这样会给你压力。。也会让自己很痛苦。。唉。。有人问我。。你。。有想过要放弃吗。。我也因为这个问题，想了一段日子。。。我的答案。。是。。如果等他让我一点也不快乐。。为什么我不干脆让自己痛苦一段日子，好过一直痛苦下去啊。。可是我觉得我放弃的话我会后悔的。。不知道后悔什么。。也许你是我见过最合我口味的吧。。你告诉我。。对他已经只是好感了。。我才放下心来。。当我再问你，难道你没有信心放下他的时候。。你却回答。。也许吧。。这是在拒绝我吗。。唉。。我当时的心真的是。。流泪了。。。。最近我越来越觉得那句话有些更改了。。你最近对我的方式。。让我觉得很不对劲。。我以为你只是被一些事情困扰着。。所以就挪出时间来陪你聊天。。虽然我有更重要的事要做。。可是。。事情过了。。你。。还是一样。。我真的不知道该怎么做。。我很乱。。从来没有那么乱过。。我也不知道我该怎么面对。。逃避吗。。？也许吧。。唉。。我想。。。我是时候做出一个双赢的决定了。。。但我需要时间。。如果我的决定会伤害我自己。。不管怎么样。。我一定要好。。准备回去学校面对所有的一切压力。。》《本来以为这一切可以很简单。。看来。。我错了。。比我想象中的更复杂。。一句对不起。。真的那么有用吗。。也许在某些地方有用吧。。以前的我。。可以人忍这一切。。可是为什么。。现在什么都不能忍得很久了呢。。也许我自我中心了吧。。唉。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。我不可以再乱下去了。。我。。是时候作出决定了。。在我更加无法自拔之前。。。。。。我。。不怪你。。。=)

怎么办呢。。

真烦啊。。。

哎。。失落叻。。

哎。。不懂怎么搞的叻。。越来越冷哦。。><..我已经尽量不去想那么多了。。哎。。希望一切只是我的不习惯。。哎。。真的很烦啊。。。喜欢一个人原来比跟一个人在一起更烦哦。。怎么办啊。。要我每晚都迟迟才能入眠吗。。？是很辛苦啦。。可是。。没跟他聊到我有睡不着哦。。很矛盾吧？哎。。怎么办呢。。感觉这种咚咚。。很乱的咯。。哎。。我不会放弃的。。 除非你拒绝我为止。。Blek~好啦。。睡觉前许个愿， 明天会更好。。希望啦。。><

14 has over...T.T

Even though 14 is over.. but.. hehe.. somebody said will answer on the 22th.. hehe.. just the day we set earlier.. because that day is just one month after we know each other.. hehe.. it was me.. aikxx.. too GAN JIONG edi.. so move it earlier to 14.. who knows.. haha.. she still prefers 22.. so.. just wait for that day lorhx.. hehehehehehe... hope everything comes true ba...&.. i swear to god that.. i will do everything for her and also <3 with all my heart... hehe...this may be geli.. but i will do it with alllllll my heart... heaven and earth may witness it.. hehe... and lastly.. W.C.. I XovX you..=D..

难忘的一天。。

Damn Xia Sui today le...@@ Oh my.. i was planning to give W.C a present for some personal reasons..xD... and i was planning to pass it to her through her friends.. who knows.. her friend don't wanna help me..@@ said what.. if she helped me means that i don't have 诚意o.. aikxx.. and my friend.. IrWin~~~ @@ keep forcing me to give.. while keep calling her name.. made me can't don't give her d.. aikxx.. then W.C finally went to the police cadet room there.. when i was going to walk towards her.. she ran away because of shyness@@ back to her friends there.. this made me.. Oh my..Shy till~ aikxx.. dunno how to say ar.. then because irwin was waiting for me to go to the bilik tayangan, therefore i finally made a decision .. that is.. just go forward and pass her the presents and leave..@@ don't care about what shy thingy d..@@ when i was approaching, she.. was to shy and she turned her head away i guess..@@ haha.. and when i reached right beside her.. she don't dare to take the present from me.. her friends were quite nice to her.. haha.. suggested to take it for her.. as they knows every part of her right.. haha.. and Rina said, you don't want give me de lo.. haha..and W.C turned to me and said.. "谢。。。。。谢。。。。" very.. cold le.. haha.. i've told her not to say the words.. as the way she said it out really very... coldd...==.. and her friends were more excited than her.. hahax.. they forced her to open.. and so.. of course dunno who la.. opened from the top.. haha.. very silly o.. they didn't know that the present was wrapped for three different wrapping papers..xD. hahahahaha... and of course they didn't manage to see what's inside it.. haha.. well.. there's a winter SnowMan inside.. i found that.. she loved to use the word 雪人。。and so i guess she likes snowman a lot.. haha.. the snowman have the ability to dance with the song jingle bell xD... cool isn't it?=P.. and there's a tobleron chocolate inside.. haha.. and also.. a cup.. xD to drink more water.. hehe.. and P.S.. sorry to her wives for ..hahax.. for snatching her away.. wakakakakkaka.. sorry ya..=P... W.C.. I.. miss You,,,=)

Where Are You?? Wuuu~~

Are you okay??? you didn't reply my message for the whole night lerhx... @@ i feels really really weir..@@ it's not your tuition today lerhx.. or.. piano class?? but i thought it's in the morning....?? well i wish it's not because you dont' wanan chap me or what@@ aikxx... looking forward for you reply..@@

Band~

She's going to be colour guard this sunday@@ for band.. aikxx.. she said she's kindda lack of confidence ..@@ i've said some words to her and i hope she would be better.. however, just wanna tell her that, no matter what happens, i'll be here for you and support you always...^^.. and just try your best...^^ don't make your sacrificing practices waster..^^ gambateh..~!! muackzz~ hehez