Me Back~!!xD

Wahoa.. just back from HOSpital last fri.... aik.. damn sien.. often school reminds aboud DENGUE.. i never thought i will KENA T.T Dengue is really scary.. aik.. first day i kena, i was so damn suffering.. it was thursday...>< then friday.. WORSE... the third day.. can't tahan edi.. masuk wad>< as my younger brother also kena dengue...>< but his was the 6th day.. and i was the third.. because of THIS.. i have to stay ward for 7 miserable days..>< while my bro just stayed one night.. yerrrrr... so envy le...>< you know what? Hospital isn't a really nice place to stay><
i hate malaysian hospitals.. like too full inside then keep shifting my ward.. from 4A bed 1,stayed one night.. damn cold>< to 5C bed 17, this one okay... stayed two nights.. then dunno for what heaven sake i'm back to 4A again.. but bed 23... damn noisy here.. got one damn fat uncle was beside me>< i hate his TUTU train>< aikx.. you know what right.. ( Snooring ) adui.. dunno how many HORSEPOWER ar..>< luckily just one night.. then guess what? i'm back to 4A bed 1 again == the FREEZER.. because it's a four person ward..>< thanks god i didn't have to spend a night there xD then back to 5C AGAIN~! Oh my.. this time is bed 16== recent one was 17... booming right? then i spend one night here.. which is the fifth night.. the doctor said i may discharge on the next day if my platelet blood count is abouve 50>< ( normal should be among 150 to 400 , mine was 28>< nearly dead) adui.. then the next day.. i woke up with a happy mood.. thought can discharge d.. then ask the doctor to do me a blood test to check my platelet blood count level.. guess what? it just raised to 36 == then after noon, i checked again.. guess what? it raised to 44== i was so.. pek cek.. can't discharge..>< then around evening.. i DID ONE AGAIN.. omg..>< the third blood test of the day.. GUESS WHAT? it raised to......... 48~!!!!!!! WHAT THE...>< 2 to discharge and say bye bye to HOSPITAL>< aik.. then u have to stay another night>< then the doctor shifted me to 5C ward 23== i was so tired and angry but she still shift me here shift me there.... aik.. pek cek lor...>< but thank god...xD the next day i raised to 77~! yeepeee~! can discharge edi hehe... then i left with a happy mood and wondering where was i.. because i entered the hospital by the back door.. and shift here shift there inside.. and never know how the hospital looks from the outside.. it was nice..>< like our KLIA.. but a smaller version.. beautiful also no use>< service so CHA>< nevermind lar.. it's a general hospital.. no choice>< free mar hor? >< aik.. my first serious sick. first ward stay, first blood draw>< then drawn 20++ times..>< my elbow>< aik.. full of PORES.. dunno should consider as Pore protein or Carrier protein edi>< then the DRIP... aik.. so called 吊水.. ppl dripped for 9 pints... i dripped for 27 pints~!!! one pint is about 500 ml.. times 27 is... 27 x 500 ml = 13500 ml le.. whoa..... 13.5litres le.. plus i finished aboud 7 bottles of water in 7 days>< one big bottle of water is 1500 ml.. 1500 x 7 = 10500 ml.. which is 10.5 litre omg>< scary.. add it up is 13.5 + 10.5 = 24litres.. omg.. i didn't know i'm a water monster>< can you believe it?! omg.. whole ppl full of water.. but doctor says my body couldn't take much water, so must keep drip>< T.T it was a seven days day and night MARE.. aik.. thanks god it is over..>< haha.. finally i updated my blog=P

birthday~! haha

明天就是我的生日了。。。十六年了。。哈哈。。真快啊。。 可是心情淡淡的。。不知道少了什么耶。。哎。。 希望我明天会很快乐。。不要影响自己明天的心情，很扫兴的叻。。哈哈。。

Exam~><

Adui.. today add maths ar... very sui de lor>< last question actually correct d>< but i found the answer was just tooo big to be the possible answer so i.. used my PLUS to corrected it.. who knows finish correcting it the bell rang.. and i wrote non on it~! pek cek ar............ aik... cham lor.. hope don't fail>< tomorrow bio..>< our sampat and sot teacher said for those who doesn't pass 80 marks will have to do corrections for 100 times per question.. 100 TIMES~!!!! OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG...>< pek cek arrrr... dunno why recently so pek cek....>< luckily love things settle d>< now got another problem.. maybe too lonely? haha lol.. weird thinking.. who calls i'm corn the werido>< haha.. well many friends have come to an end recently>< dunno why.. the one i thought is always the right one is seemed to be the bad one== a lil bit dissapointed>< and quite pity the one whom always got gossip by the one i thought is always right>< thanks god i found the almost true but not yet true fact..== what am i talking about.. haha.. 3 weeks didn't update d.. type till hand got a lil bit numb.. haha.. sampat de.. and here i would like to share a joke, you guys know why one plus one equals to three but not two? there are two answer..
one, because the answer is wrong=)
second, because
FATHER + MOTHER = YOU~!.. and FATHER+MOTHER+YOU= ? 3~! haha.. maybe it's not funny.. but.. barely laugh a lil bit lar har.. k? haha cheer up guys!=)

神秘嘉宾

我踩着梦的阶梯
走进了 一座迷雾森林
谁的心事 被天使窃听
泛起涟漪

时间它帮我设计 下一秒
谁是神秘嘉宾
小心翼翼 揭开了面具
掌声鼓励

谁闯进我的场地 谁让我措手不及
我早就预备的剧情 你却给我一笔
狡猾地 致命地正中我红心

我跟谁变得亲密 谁逐渐离我远去
华丽演出共襄盛举 唯有你的背影
友情客串却留下刻骨铭心的回忆

你按了我的门铃 我终於
从呵欠中苏醒
紧张兮兮 对你说一句
欢迎光临

全场观众都离席 剩下我
还在原地寻觅
耳边听着 谢幕的歌曲
走不出去

谁闯进我的场地 谁让我措手不及
我早就预备的剧情 你却给我一笔
狡猾地 致命地正中我红心

我跟谁变得亲密 谁逐渐离我远去
华丽演出共襄盛举 唯有你的背影
友情客串却留下刻骨铭心的回忆

我搬到谁的隔壁 谁成了我的邻居
鸣谢生命有你参与 笑纳我的邀请
曲终人散却写下不会结束 的结局。。。

过了那么久。。我。。曾经与过三个神秘嘉宾。。每次她们离席时。。都会使我迷失在自己的森林里。。迷失了自己。。但是。。在许多时候，某些熟悉的背影，却让我看见光线。。使我能再度寻找到自己。。只是。。看你愿不愿意让自己走出来。。虽然过了两个礼拜。。我有时也会想起她。。但是我一直告诉我自己。。我必须走出去。。不该让感情的事来影响我。。因此。。我就到上了一具面具。。非常厚的面具。。不明白吧？哈哈。。我解释噢。。就是，我一直在掩盖自己的情绪。。压迫自己的情绪。。不让它爆发。。在很多朋友面前，我会办得很开朗。。呵呵。。但是。。那些背影。。@@。。他们都很明白我。。了解我。。都会知道我到底是什么心情。。哎。。说到这里就很感动。。我常常因为面子而伤害了他们。。可是他们。。还是对我很好。。使我内疚得很。。哎。。真的不懂该怎么办。。还有那些因为我而伤心的人。。我终于体会你们的感觉了。。原来是那么的恐怖。真的很抱歉。。哎。。突然睡不着。。就大了这些。。哈哈。。怪胎。。还有。。我不懂为什么那么多人怕见到我。。或是一见到我就怕。。谁能够跟我解释阿。。我不明白。。@@ 我像鬼哦？还是什么啊。。哎。。懂的人请告诉我。。><

aikxxx.. MooDy For Dayx...

Aikxx... dunno what am i moody of..@@ results? impossible><.. money? maybe.. Love? no idea... i just wish that i could have a happy life everyday.. but.. i'm thinking of how to escape from someone else..>< seeing her escaping me everyday by walking a longer and longer way away from my class to keep away from me i feels really sorry for her>< it might be very tiring..>< if as what her friend said she still have feelings on me but why does she do so and leave me endlessly painful here?!>< aik.. UseLess CorN><

what is it?!

today.. H1 N1 told me.. someone said she's scare when she see me.. aikx.. she's the third person..>< indeed... first , pine, second, ling, third, her.. aikxx.. am i realy so scary?! like a lion? or a tiger? or even KING KONG?! aikxx.. feels so depressed.. it's another time AGAIN.. i have to be hard for my life everyday to put someone in my heart down AGAIN..>< aikxx..

表哥的十八岁生日~

昨天。。六月九日是我表哥的生日。。哈哈。。当然。。十八岁的生日他爸爸也不想就这样算了。。所以就有了个生日会。。哈哈。。那。。生日会当中。。我见到了他女友。。哈哈。。shhh。。他父母不知道的。。哈哈。。但是他今年要的生日礼物。。。就是能有他自己的时间。。哈哈。。我们那里所有的年轻人都明白这句话的意思。。但是。。他父母却不知道。。哈哈哈哈哈哈。。真的是啊。。。。哈哈。。满羡慕的啦。。哎。。虽然有过两个女友。。可是都。。哎。。不懂啦。。至少都有超过八个月啦。。也许我的却是一个怪人？所以它们都变了心？>< 哎。。更糟的是。。我又得重新面对另一个害怕。。。zzzz 多谢某人。。也不是怪她啦。。只是。。至少现在我知道。。好感可以随便有的。。==。。 所以也很快。。就吹了。。对吧？== 总之我就是很气。。><。。气到要爆炸了啦。。！！！！ 表面上我是说还要和你当朋友。。可是。。我通常会超过半年不跟你说话。。== 我想你也不会介意。。还好你说的时候。。是我最忙的那天。。所以我就让自己更忙。。哎。。不懂啦。。至少这不会让我觉得烦了。。 不懂为什么。。我还是很生气你。。==。。 是小气吗？还是因为我真的受伤了？不懂。。希望这三天去云顶可以把它忘掉。。也许很快。。但我一定要这么做。。不然开学后我就死定了。。又加上他每天都会早来。。 哎。。之前我朋友也有说过我。。找那么小的干吗？好骗哦？我就说。。因为他们专情。。他们就说不一定哦。。我也没听。。 我干姐就说。。那你有没有想过。。你明年就毕业了。。毕了业你的去读书。。这样一来你们就等于进入了远距离恋爱。。因为我不知道我会去那里读书。。多数不留在雪兰莪啦。。然后。。你等她毕业。。她又得读书。。这段时间我又在工作。。根本不是很能陪到她。。那时候感情也是会吹了的。。我觉得这一句话很有可能。。也很有意思。。== 所以我就想了想。。觉得我太不会想了。。又加上他那几天对我。。。>< 所以我才会提出他到底在想什么的问题。。结果。。就被拒绝啦。。我也不是很伤心。。毕竟我也有心理准备。。只是很气~！！！！！没关系。。。至少我明白了。。为什么。。小女孩不适合我。。因为。。他们还不清楚自己的想法。。而且我发现。。到了中三的女生。。。通常很会变心。。所以通常女生到了中三。。就会换一下男友。。然后呢。。中四旧稳定下来了。。这个时候是她们定终身的时候瓜。。哈哈。。真可惜。。已经六月了。。我却还没找到。。哎。。总觉得中四没有我要的类型。。== 眼光太怪？哈哈。。我发现我喜欢的都躲不过有戴眼镜哦。。哈哈。。哎。。没有了他也好。。我就能专心在做别的事。。比如说。。读书啊。。去关心朋友啊。。这一类的。。哈哈。。刚从营会回来。。认识了不少朋友。。其中呢。。认识了一个叫。。什么。。Beatrice 的女生。。他的名字还真怪哦。。我起初发音时用。。 beat rice.. 哈哈。。。打饭。。她很美啦。。说真的。。但我认识他不是因为她美。。哈哈。。是因为她会弹吉它。。然后我教堂又需要一位吉它手。。他又是基督徒。。太完美了。。哈哈。。他有问我能不能来弹。。我当然说可以。因为我就是要问他这个。。就这样。。我就拿到了他的电话号码。。哈哈。。很炸到吧？人家拿号码是问：小姐我可以认识你吗？哈哈。。感觉上我这么做很贱叻。。哈哈。。她和她的朋友还问我。。有没有画眼线。。== 哈哈。。很多人都问我这个问题。。然后就说我的眉毛很粗。。然后就说我想蜡笔小新。。==..haha。。真的是啊。。还有还有。。我的朋友就问我。。" 啊涛，为什么你不要去认识那几个美女？" 还没来得及回答。。我的朋友就说。。"我知道。。因为她很容易害羞。。哈哈。。脸很容易红。。"炸到哦。。哈哈。。但的确啦。。所以我不喜欢被人家叫去拍照。。哈哈。。哎。。我的folio还没赶完。。T.T..得带去云顶了。。哎。。

Well.. it ended.. once again..

Well.. she ignored me and i.. could just sit here and do nothing~!!! Aikx..>< why am i always so unlucky and can't meet the right one?>< maybe.. god is trying to tell me " it's not time yet.." aik.. i think i should have something changed in my life.. lead myself to a new life..>< aik.. i will be fine soon and i... wish you happy.. =)

I Miss You><

Well.. it's the third day><.. and.. on the second day i just.. can't stand anymore and i sent her a message..>< aik.. well it's noob actually.. i shouldn't do this as well.. and i.. just..>< can't stop thinking of you.. i really wish that you could answer me more than i expected..><( ignoring).. aik.. and also don't answer dunno><.. i.. miss you..>< i wish i could sms with you everyday like i did but.. i tell myself i must control..>< for our own good..>< aikx.. i miss you.. W...hat C...an i do? ><

充实的人生。。？

哈哈。。说到充实。。是忙碌吗？？ 是很多很多的是要做吗？不晓得叻。。我的充实人生。。的意思是。。帮人家补习！！哈哈。。很炸到吧？？我万万也没想到。。我竟然会帮小朋友们补习。。==。。我一进去。。就看到一个叫。。naviin的印度小孩。。哈哈。。他才。。四年级吧?haha。。然后呢。。就有另外四个进来。。他们都很可爱。。老实说。。哈哈。。他们一直叫我“老师老师。。" haha..我心想。。我有机会当老师我都不想拉。。哈哈。。”我就这样一直教他们。。教了教。。突然有一个。。突然说。。老师。。为什么你一直管我而已的？ 我那时真的是。。哈哈。。我就说。。因为你太吵了。。哈哈。。他也就无话可说了。。瓦卡卡~！！ 到了最后的十分钟。。也教完了。。我想。。小孩子还真的很容易相处哦。。哈哈。。才问了他们的名字而已。。就跟我熟到。。哈哈。。他们就以直问我谜语哦。。惨了咯。。我最懒惰猜谜语了。。就这样一直回答不了。。就被他们酸哦。。说。。yerr..老师你form4都不会哦。。哈哈。。很惨的咯。。><。。更难以置信的事。。三年级就有电话了~！！！！！他们跟我那电话后就一直sms我。。很烦的咯。。哈哈。。结果我就说。。我电话没电了。。哈哈。。他就没有烦了。。瓦卡卡。。。很好用一下这招。。哈哈。。今天也忙了一天。。也累了。。还好忙到。。><。。没什么时间去想某些事。。可是一闲空下来就。。很想哭。。哎。。我也太脆弱了吧。。==。。失败。。希望明天会更好吧。。^^ 加油~！

难眠~

哎。。一整夜都不想睡。。也睡不着。。为什么我会。。唉。。那么伤心呢。。他有没当过我女友阿。。><..有人说过。。当你跟一个人聊超过二十一次时。。你就已经习惯了。。当你想念一个人二十一次时。。你已经喜欢上她了。。我想。。我想他的次数。。原超过二十一次了吧。。><...哎。。我。。真的很心疼。。。也好无奈。。我接下来的一个礼拜。。会很难受。。万一。。一个礼拜后。。他的答案是。。对不起。。那。。我接下来的每一天。。该怎么过。。。><。。难道。。选择一个喜欢自己的人。。真的不好过选择自己喜欢，又不喜欢自己的人吗。。。。哎。。难道。。感情就不能从好感慢慢的增加到喜欢甚至是爱吗。。不是有许多人都在好感中接受对方的吗。。我很难过。。埃。。。自从我放下秀凌后。。已经好久都没那么。。。伤心了。。哎。。好难受。。><。。虽然它不是我女友。。可是。。我对他的行为上。。是犹如女友的。。因为我真的很喜欢他。。。><..哎。。难道真的要。。要。。。放手吗。。我。。不想。。。哎。。希望“你”看了。。能够明白我的意思。。如果你还是不能。。我只好。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。'~'

一个礼拜的时间。。。。

我不快乐叻。。哎。。也许。。我又再次有当初的感觉了。。？（不宜说。。欲知详情请私底下问我。。—）我在一个非常失落的情况下。。做了一个。。决定。。就是我们一个礼拜不聊。。一个礼拜后。。再告诉我。。是否要给我机会。。还是要拒绝我。。也许。。这是一个非常复杂的事。。我也觉得。。一个追求者。。竟然。。哈哈。。多数的人都是会得到。。“我接受你。。”或。。“对不起。。我不适合你，也不想浪费你时间”类似的话。。对吧。。？哈哈。。没关系。。至少我现在才知道。。好感。。在某些努力下。。会变成喜欢。。甚至是爱。。哈哈。。希望。。我能好好过吧。。假期我也有许多是要做。。就。。把注意力放在别的事上吧。。呵呵。。玉蜀黍。。！！！加油！！！

命中注定吗。。

唉。。你说“不管结果是什么。。你都要坚强面对。。就算事实事实是残酷的。。”唉。。等也等了一个月又八天。。难道我所做过的一切努力。。就只值那么一句吗。。我不知道为什么。。你说对我有好感。。我就很开心。。也就不自制地喜欢你。。结果就越来越喜欢。。变成了。。深深的。。爱了。。唉。。都是我的错吧。。我不该这样的。。这样会给你压力。。也会让自己很痛苦。。唉。。有人问我。。你。。有想过要放弃吗。。我也因为这个问题，想了一段日子。。。我的答案。。是。。如果等他让我一点也不快乐。。为什么我不干脆让自己痛苦一段日子，好过一直痛苦下去啊。。可是我觉得我放弃的话我会后悔的。。不知道后悔什么。。也许你是我见过最合我口味的吧。。你告诉我。。对他已经只是好感了。。我才放下心来。。当我再问你，难道你没有信心放下他的时候。。你却回答。。也许吧。。这是在拒绝我吗。。唉。。我当时的心真的是。。流泪了。。。。最近我越来越觉得那句话有些更改了。。你最近对我的方式。。让我觉得很不对劲。。我以为你只是被一些事情困扰着。。所以就挪出时间来陪你聊天。。虽然我有更重要的事要做。。可是。。事情过了。。你。。还是一样。。我真的不知道该怎么做。。我很乱。。从来没有那么乱过。。我也不知道我该怎么面对。。逃避吗。。？也许吧。。唉。。我想。。。我是时候做出一个双赢的决定了。。。但我需要时间。。如果我的决定会伤害我自己。。不管怎么样。。我一定要好。。准备回去学校面对所有的一切压力。。》《本来以为这一切可以很简单。。看来。。我错了。。比我想象中的更复杂。。一句对不起。。真的那么有用吗。。也许在某些地方有用吧。。以前的我。。可以人忍这一切。。可是为什么。。现在什么都不能忍得很久了呢。。也许我自我中心了吧。。唉。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。我不可以再乱下去了。。我。。是时候作出决定了。。在我更加无法自拔之前。。。。。。我。。不怪你。。。=)

怎么办呢。。

真烦啊。。。

哎。。失落叻。。

哎。。不懂怎么搞的叻。。越来越冷哦。。><..我已经尽量不去想那么多了。。哎。。希望一切只是我的不习惯。。哎。。真的很烦啊。。。喜欢一个人原来比跟一个人在一起更烦哦。。怎么办啊。。要我每晚都迟迟才能入眠吗。。？是很辛苦啦。。可是。。没跟他聊到我有睡不着哦。。很矛盾吧？哎。。怎么办呢。。感觉这种咚咚。。很乱的咯。。哎。。我不会放弃的。。 除非你拒绝我为止。。Blek~好啦。。睡觉前许个愿， 明天会更好。。希望啦。。><

14 has over...T.T

Even though 14 is over.. but.. hehe.. somebody said will answer on the 22th.. hehe.. just the day we set earlier.. because that day is just one month after we know each other.. hehe.. it was me.. aikxx.. too GAN JIONG edi.. so move it earlier to 14.. who knows.. haha.. she still prefers 22.. so.. just wait for that day lorhx.. hehehehehehe... hope everything comes true ba...&.. i swear to god that.. i will do everything for her and also <3 with all my heart... hehe...this may be geli.. but i will do it with alllllll my heart... heaven and earth may witness it.. hehe... and lastly.. W.C.. I XovX you..=D..

难忘的一天。。

Damn Xia Sui today le...@@ Oh my.. i was planning to give W.C a present for some personal reasons..xD... and i was planning to pass it to her through her friends.. who knows.. her friend don't wanna help me..@@ said what.. if she helped me means that i don't have 诚意o.. aikxx.. and my friend.. IrWin~~~ @@ keep forcing me to give.. while keep calling her name.. made me can't don't give her d.. aikxx.. then W.C finally went to the police cadet room there.. when i was going to walk towards her.. she ran away because of shyness@@ back to her friends there.. this made me.. Oh my..Shy till~ aikxx.. dunno how to say ar.. then because irwin was waiting for me to go to the bilik tayangan, therefore i finally made a decision .. that is.. just go forward and pass her the presents and leave..@@ don't care about what shy thingy d..@@ when i was approaching, she.. was to shy and she turned her head away i guess..@@ haha.. and when i reached right beside her.. she don't dare to take the present from me.. her friends were quite nice to her.. haha.. suggested to take it for her.. as they knows every part of her right.. haha.. and Rina said, you don't want give me de lo.. haha..and W.C turned to me and said.. "谢。。。。。谢。。。。" very.. cold le.. haha.. i've told her not to say the words.. as the way she said it out really very... coldd...==.. and her friends were more excited than her.. hahax.. they forced her to open.. and so.. of course dunno who la.. opened from the top.. haha.. very silly o.. they didn't know that the present was wrapped for three different wrapping papers..xD. hahahahaha... and of course they didn't manage to see what's inside it.. haha.. well.. there's a winter SnowMan inside.. i found that.. she loved to use the word 雪人。。and so i guess she likes snowman a lot.. haha.. the snowman have the ability to dance with the song jingle bell xD... cool isn't it?=P.. and there's a tobleron chocolate inside.. haha.. and also.. a cup.. xD to drink more water.. hehe.. and P.S.. sorry to her wives for ..hahax.. for snatching her away.. wakakakakkaka.. sorry ya..=P... W.C.. I.. miss You,,,=)

Where Are You?? Wuuu~~

Are you okay??? you didn't reply my message for the whole night lerhx... @@ i feels really really weir..@@ it's not your tuition today lerhx.. or.. piano class?? but i thought it's in the morning....?? well i wish it's not because you dont' wanan chap me or what@@ aikxx... looking forward for you reply..@@

Band~

She's going to be colour guard this sunday@@ for band.. aikxx.. she said she's kindda lack of confidence ..@@ i've said some words to her and i hope she would be better.. however, just wanna tell her that, no matter what happens, i'll be here for you and support you always...^^.. and just try your best...^^ don't make your sacrificing practices waster..^^ gambateh..~!! muackzz~ hehez

I.. Missi You...><

I Know you Since 22 of april... it's an really great day for me... hehex... but... i.. as you know i've fallen in love with you before 22 of aprill.. thanks for giving me this chance to contact with you..^^.. hahax.. well.. i've committed i will give you a surprise by 22 of may.. i will try my best to give you a great surprise.. hehe... well.. it's really happy when chatting with you..=P ..as... you're not as diam as i thought..,.xD.. good thing.. hahax.. keep it on yea.. and.. take care yea...=P.. i miss you always...=P

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